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 I woke up feeling great, I made plans for the day and fixed my sons clothes to take him to a kids park in the city. I managed to get up and put away some laundry before it all went south hill. It's 4PM now and I made it this far without meds but the anxiety is so bad now that I can't stop shaking, I want to scream and jump and do anything just to make it stop but I don't have the energy to do more then breathing while still looking like a "normal person" right now.

I'm watching a movie with my family again because I knew that studying with my son would be impossible and honestly I feel like crap, I wouldn't been able to study anything. I went upstairs now to get some distance since my son is sleeping and to eat some anti anxiety meds, I ended up eating 2 oxascand and really hope that it will help because that's the maximum dosage/24h. 

There honestly isn't much more to say today, crappy day today and a crappy one tomorrow at work. I'll just have to keep watching movies or something to get me through the day.. Hoping you guys are having a better day than me..

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